Looking beyond

A happy 2010 to everyone.  I doubt anyone reads this blog anyway.  Perhaps only the select few and some leftover people who still love me.  Sigh*

Never mind the melodrama, I guess this day had to come.  I actually didn't want it to arrive. It's rather silly of me but I just don't want this age.  I don't get what the big significance is but it just feels like an older age. I guess it got stuck on my mind that course that I planned out for myself back when I was 15 or 16.  I guess at that time I was already mapping out my dream and this age seems to convey that I should having or doing 'this and that'.  I will of course not mention 'this and that' here as such that I'm not near to 'this and that'.

I know that I shouldn't lose hope and think that there's always a plan out there.  So I guess I have to make do with what I can do now.

Moving on to the next topic,

I just came back from my holidays in the Philippines.  It was quite a tiring week coz I wanted to cram as much as I can.  I still feel sad over the situation though.   Traffic jams, pollution, overpopulating areas, corrupt officials (yeah you GMA), and so on. I know we're are not worse off than some other countries but I feel like we Filipinos could have done better.  Sometimes I get discouraged by people who terribly hate their heritage and roots.  But I just take it all in stride and don't be pressured to feeling the same way.  Yup, sometimes I get that feeling of inis and dismay over situations but I know in my heart that I am a Filipino too. We shouldn't generalize people and lump them altogether.  But you know what's good about going back to the Philippines (my family of course).  Other than that, it's the smiles and laughter.  We are a happy people.  We find ways to see the joy and share it with people.  Bayanihan is still a trait not often seen in other races too.  So I find that there's always another side of the coin.  Perhaps we just need a little more push into the right direction.

I'd end my entry here and I just hope this year will bring more blessings.  My 2010 goal is to get back to being a student again  -  I want to relearn old stuff and learn new skills as well.  I want to be able to get back on the right track and stop wallowing on the now and my age.  I don't have 'this and that' right now but I know I'll get it.  It's just a matter of time.  But in the meantime, why not make most of what I've got and strive to be better.

Question of the day: 
Do you have what it takes to be better this 2010?