Open Letter To God

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please forgive this heart of mine. Take away the hatred that I’m feeling. I know that everything is for a reason even if I don’t know what it is. You already know what it is. This is for me and not to hurt me. I want to learn how to be a stronger person and not take offenses.  You are the master of my heart, only you have control over me and nothing and no one else.  You know who I am and what I am capable of. The enemy wants to destroy me – he wants to take away my self-worth. I am urging for the Holy Spirit to come inside me and take away this pain that festers in my heart.  

I have taken my work too personally and have affected the way I see things. It affects my productivity. I let it simmer and cook on my whole mind and heart. I see the person who has taken offense against me and I am burdened with such pain and sorrow. I have wanted to lash out against this person.  As much as I want to better myself, I also know that everyone is different.  This is not to berate me – only to make me understand that your children are all different.   Lord, guide the hearts of others to give me the chance. All I ask is a chance and I will do the best that I can. You have already asked me to stay on – to carry out a task which I have yet to understand and fulfill. 

Make me stronger Lord, I want to be that person who trusts in the Lord and let him decide what is best for me. I have not yet learned this and I want to be able to give myself fully to you.  I want to be able to accept things that will come my way, for you alone know what’s best for me. 

I pray for patience. I want to learn how to wait as this is my biggest challenge.  Lord, you who are always waiting for us and who is timeless. You are the greatest teacher of patience – kindly teach me how to gain some of your gift and be able to control my anxiety. 

I have always looked inward and take all the blame onto myself. I want to give myself up and focus on others.  Lord, you are the epitome of selflessness – hearing our prayers every second of every hour of every day. You give so much and asking for little.

Finally, dear Lord, teach me how to let go.

Amen.