Apologies Not Accepted

Dear You,

I have been neglectful lately and taken things for granted.  I created you as my source of energy and slowly sucked it out of you.  You ask for simple things in return which I disregarded like a shrug. I asked "what's wrong?" but you've let it go.  In turn, I've let it go as well, but I have not seen clearly the pain you're feeling.  We only have this strong emotional bond that ties us together but how long will it last?  Every time it comes to the point of argument, I tell myself to be different, to change to suit to your rules and principles.  I still rebel and do it my way.  No matter what I start to do, the next day would still return the old me.  The real problem lies in me - I care too much outwardly, in turn, I neglect things that should have mattered the most.  I am truly sorry and I wish with all my might that I could turn back time and regain back your trust and confidence in me.  I'm hurt by what you've said but I guess like they say "the truth does hurt".  I want to give you an out but I'm too scared to ask it.  I'm not as courageous and aloof as I was before.  The thought of losing you is more sad than the saddest song I've ever heard.  Still, if you do give me the exit door, then I will try to cross it.  I know I've said this before, but really, if this what it takes me for me to realize my selfishness and change for the better.  I will really have to take this journey of change ahead.  I'm afraid to ask for more chances which I've failed, but for the last time, I will still ask for it...

Yours truly,
Me